WAKING UP, ALIVE The Descent, The Suicide Attempt, and the Return to Life Richard A. Heckler, Ph.D. Table of Contents Begin Reading Connecticut ● New York ● Colorado Table of Contents COVER TITLE PAGE & PREFACE Copyright Notices Dedication Preface to the Second Edition Preface Acknowledgements About the Author Introduction NUMBERS THE FOCUS OF THIS BOOK HOW TO USE THIS BOOK PART I - Vanishing Chapter One - Loss TRAUMATIC LOSS THE FAMILY SACRIFICE ALIENATION Chapter Two - The Descent UNACKNOWLEDGED PAIN - THE INABILITY TO MOURN THE WITHDRAWAL THE FAÇADE THE TRANCE Trance as Logical Trance as Self-reinforcing Loss of Will The Beckoning Illusions of Eternity Chapter Three - The Attempt THE TUNNEL THE ATTEMPT ITSELF The Fury The Methodical Trance Intimations of Death The Eye of the Hurricane AT THE HEART OF THE ATTEMPT Escaping the Inescapable Power and Control The Attempt to Communicate Killing the Vehicle The Bubble Bursts PART II - The Return Chapter Four - Waking Up, Alive THE PHYSICAL DAMAGE LOSS OF PRIVACY THE HOSPITAL Chapter Five - The Road Back FIRST STEPS PART III - The Anatomy of Recovery Chapter Six - Dissolving the Trance SUSPENDING DOUBT BREAKING THE SUICIDAL CONTEXT GRIEVING LEARNING TO TRUST LETTING GO OF DYING Chapter Seven - Rebuilding the Self HEALING THE PAST TAKING RESPONSIBILITY WHO AM I? CREATIVITY OPENING TO THE UNEXPECTED Chapter Eight - Reaching Out ASKING FOR HELP BEING SEEN RECOGNIZING SUPPORT Chapter Nine - Allowing Others In MIRRORING SEEING A BIGGER PICTURE EXPERIENCING THE HUMANNESS OF OTHERS EXTENDING TO FAMILY Chapter Ten - Giving Back Chapter Eleven - Now FROM POWERLESSNESS TO AUTHORSHIP FROM LOSS OF FAITH TO SPIRITUAL GROUND FROM BEING STUCK TO BECOMING UNSTUCK FROM A LACK OF BELONGING TO A SENSE OF PLACE Epilogue - Suicide Revisited Selected Bibliography for Personal Healing and General Interest Selected Clinical Bibliography RECOMMENDED RECENT BOOKS ON SUICIDE OTHER REFERENCES ON SUICIDE Most Common Myths About Suicide Resources Copyright Notices RICHARD A. HECKLER, Ph.D. WAKING UP, ALIVE The Descent, The Suicide Attempt, and the Return to Life Copyright © 1994, 2014 by Richard A. Heckler Int’l ISBN: 978-1-62071-048-7 ISBN: 1-62071-048-X All rights reserved. Except for use in any review, the reproduction or utilization of this work in whole or in part in any form by any electronic means is forbidden unless written permission has been received from the publisher LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CATALOGING-IN-PUBLICATION DATA Heckler, Richard A Waking up, alive: the descent, the suicide attempt, and the return to life / Richard A. Heckler. Suicidal behavior, Suicidal behavior—Case studies, Despair, Hope New York: Putnam, c1994. RC569 .H43 1994 616.85/844509 93050873 0399139451 Cover design by Bjarne Blume Cover photograph by Richard A. Heckler Museen zu PreuBichser Kultubesitz, Nationalgalerie. Photograph: Artothek For information address: Author & Company, LLC P.O. Box 291 Cheshire, CT 06410-9998 This eBook was designed by iLN™ and manufactured in the United States of America.
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