Snapshots: Chronicles of a Bipolar ADHD Earth Traveler

161 Pages·2016·0.65 MB·English

by  Clark

Snapshots:

Chronicles of a Bi-Polar ADHD
Earth Traveler
Snapshots:
Chronicles of a Bipolar ADHD Earth Traveler

Lee R. Clark

Copyright 2016
Inside I’m Going a mile a minute Concentration - Forget it Thoughts swirl like a
merry go round - I just grab at them as quick as I can Focus - yeah right!
Attention to detail - yeah right!
Repetition - yeah right!
Uncertainty
Fear
Hopelessness
Lack of Sleep - Fear of Sleep Faster, Faster, Faster…
Can’t stop, won’t stop, don’t want to stop. HELP ME
Dedication
This book is dedicated to Emily my wife. While we knew each other for about
three years before we were married, and we discussed much about each of our
lives, Emily never received a full picture of me and my life. I’m writing this
book in large part to provide a picture of my life so that she can better
understand me and have a history of my life should she ever need to share that
with someone else.
I’m also writing this book for my family. I come from a very dysfunctional
fragmented family whose history is not known by any of us. By sharing my part,
I hope they can use it to fill in their pieces and gain a better understanding of
their life and in so doing create their own snapshots. To my four older siblings,
because, for the most part, you came in and out of my life, many times you were
merely vague recollections (almost ghosts), many of my snapshots may not fully
reflect your involvement or adequately reflect those time periods. If I was trying
to paint an accurate history of my life and life events, I would have contacted
you to fill in the pieces. But that is not my intent. These snapshots reflect what I
remember, their impact on me, lessons I learned, and the interconnectivity of all
of them. I hope you understand. Your omission is not intentional.
Finally I’m also writing this book for fellow Bipolar ADHD Earth travelers. As
I’ve gone through life, I’ve learned that these labels have at times defined me,
inhibited me, and prevented me from knowing who I am and what I can be. I
hope that sharing my story will be able to assist in some small way other Earth
travelers in their journey and in so doing help them build bridges to overcome
the walls that others put up for them.
Introduction
Chronicles of a Bipolar ADHD Earth Traveler
My name is Lee. I am 63 years old. I have lived a very diverse and at times
challenging life. I am currently married and live as a retired educator, advocate,
veteran, and life traveler.

What follows, is a chronicle of my life. It is not my memoirs. It is fragmented
and sometimes disjointed, but reflects key snapshots of my life from my earliest
memories to where I currently am. I have learned that each snapshot of my life
built upon the previous snapshot but did not dictate what or how the next
snapshot would turn out to be. Many of my early snapshots are fragmented and
reflect recollections to the best of my ability and are the result of numerous
conversations with a great therapist who helped me re-create memories, feelings
and emotions. They are truthful recollections, are not enhanced nor are they
embellished. These early recollections are merely snapshots of my life which
give a foundation for the reader to see the impact of early childhood influences.
Later snapshots, reflect more accurate reflections that I hope can provide a clear
or clearer picture of who I am and how I came to be. They are not intended to
make me look bigger, better or more than I am or was. Hopefully, they will,
however, provide the reader with a clear albeit fragmented picture of my life and