Five Alarm Lust

169 Pages·2012·0.86 MB·English

by  Whyles Elise

Blurb
Survivor Gillian Hilliard is finally healing from a nightmare past. Fearing no
man will ever find her attractive, she hides behind simple attire and large
glasses. When Gillian meets firefighter Jack Payle, she is instantly attracted, and
enjoys a wild night of sex with him. But in the cold light of day she’s torn apart
by guilt and shame, and retreats to the familiar comfort of her simple, if
unfulfilling, life.
After years of chasing the wrong kind of woman, Jack is shocked by the
instant attraction he feels for the mousy historian with shadows in her eyes and
passion simmering beneath her surface. Jack can’t get past the lust firing his
blood or the memories of her response to his touch, for passionate, sexy Gillian
is everything he’s ever wanted. Are they strong enough to face down the demons
haunting Gillian? Can she trust the man who holds her heart with her darkest
secrets and accept his help to overcome the shadows of her past? Or will the
darkness destroy them both?
Dedication
To Natalie Howard—for her patience with the medical questions. To C.C.,
Jennifer, James B, and Raylee—my Diva friends—for your words of wisdom,
your insight, and your critical and honest feedback.
Chapter 1
Gillian needed out of the suffocating confines of the pink dressing room.
With trembling fingers, she plucked at the pastel purple skirt of the atrocious
bridesmaid dress her mother had insisted she wear. It was her mother’s seventh
wedding, for goodness’ sake. The faint sounds of church bells irritated her
already stretched nerves, sounding more like a death knell than a joyful
celebration. “Mother, stop.” Gilli slapped her mother’s hand away from the thick
brown glasses perched on her nose for the tenth time. “I need those.”
“Gillian Rebecca Hilliard, you know you could do with contacts. Why on
earth you insist on wearing these ugly old things I will never understand. You’ll
never be a model, but must you hide every inch of your face?” Condescension
oozed from her mother’s tone.
“I have no desire to put plastic in my eyes,” Gilli snapped, sliding them off
her face to allow the hovering stylist to work. “I like my glasses.”
“Of course you do. Why Michael stayed with you as long as he did I will
never know.” With a huff, her mother turned to the shadowy blobs behind her.
“Do what you can with what you have.”
Pain lashed at Gilli, who swallowed against the rising tide of memories.
Absently she rubbed at her right thigh, the faint scar searing with pain. Michael
deserved to rot in hell, and she hoped he was suffering every day while in prison.
“He didn’t put up with me, Mother. I believe you of all people should remember
that, since it was you who drove me to the hospital after one of his episodes.”
“You always were a bit of an oaf…”
“The son of a bitch shoved me through a wall, not to mention down the
stairs. I’m not even going to argue with you, Mother. The glasses are mine. I like
them. They’re staying.”
“Whatever, do try to hurry Gillian.”
Gilli shook her head and listened to the rapid tapping of her mother’s heels
on the hardwood floor. “Only woman I know who wants a huge wedding every
time,” she grumbled as the stylist finished pinning her hair up.
“That’s it, Miss Hilliard. As per your request, I left most of it down.” The
young woman leaned down, her hand on Gilli’s shoulder. “You’re going to
knock ’em dead.”
Gilli offered a short, weak laugh and patted the girl’s hand. “Thanks.” She
slipped her glasses on and rose to totter toward the door on the stilettos her
mother persisted she wear. As she exited, the door closed behind her with a
click. Gilli turned, smacking face first into a tall, hard wall of flesh before her.
Heat seared her body at the touch of his hands on the bare flesh of her back.
Putting a couple of inches between them, Gilli glanced upward. Her heart
dropped before galloping in place.
Dark brown hair curled over a tanned forehead, green eyes as dark as pine
stared at her, bemusement sparkling in them. “Excuse me, miss.”
She shuddered at the slow drawl curling like a lover’s touch into her core.
Her labia pulsed beneath the lace of her panties. A flush crept along her throat to
heat her cheeks and she ducked her head to hide the wave of color washing over
her face. She cleared her throat. “No, pardon me. Entirely my fault.”
Scurrying down the hall, she gasped at the sensitivity in her breasts. Heavy,
full, the nipples throbbed beneath the layers of satin and lace. Desperate to cool
her blood, she darted past a couple of women and into the ladies room. The thin
metal door offered minimal protection as she locked herself into a stall. A thud
filled the silence as she let her forehead drop, leaned against the icy metal, and
inhaled.
Gods above, Zeus in the flesh right before me. What I wouldn’t give to have
him … but he’s not going… Arousal scorched along her veins, pooling between
her legs and soaking her underwear. Like venom, her ex’s sneering tone filled
her mind. You couldn’t turn a light bulb on, Gillian. You’re sexless. You should
get a boob job. Can’t count…
The soft clunk of the heavy public bathroom door opening preceded
Barbara’s biting tone. “Gillian, don’t think I didn’t see you…”
An uneasy cringe escaped in spite of the relief at the shattered memory.
Gillian squeezed her eyes shut. “Mother, can I not use the facilities without you
harping at me?” Gillian smoothed her skirt down, rolling her shoulders forward
in the hope of hiding her erect nipples. “I’ll be there in a moment.”
“Well hurry up, they’ve already got everyone seated. Goodness, child,
you’d think you’d remember this was my wedding!” The bathroom door clicked
shut on her mother’s tirade.
With a roll of her eyes, Gillian stepped out of the stall, shot a look at her
reflection in the mirror, and inhaled.
“There’s no point in getting hot and bothered over the likes of him. He ain’t
going to want you.” Gilli waved a hand at her reflection, a perfect imitation of
her mother. “Horn-rimmed glasses, mousy-looking hair, no tits. Didn’t Mike
teach you a damn thing, Gillian? Men don’t want a mouse, they want a sexpot,
and you’re not it.”
With a quick shake of her head, she smoothed her skirt down, sucked in a
deep breath, and pulled open the bathroom door. She glanced around carefully
before darting into the hallway.
Pressed close to the wall, she took her place before her mother, feeling like
an over-stuffed Easter egg as the Wedding March began to play. A smile pasted
on her face, she gripped the flowers in her hand tighter and began the slow but
steady shuffle toward the preacher.
Focused on getting there without falling, Gilli gasped at the man standing
next to the altar. Laughing green eyes watched her, his lips turned upward at the
corners. A slight shadow covered his square jaw. The dark suit he wore clung to
his broad shoulders, tucking in at his waist. She wondered if beneath his suit
coat, his ass was as good as the rest of him. Embarrassed, she stepped back,
narrowly missing tripping on her own gown’s hem.
Her mother’s pointed clearing of her throat drew her attention to the woman
sashaying along, the yards and yards of tulle and lace out of place on a woman in
her fifties—who’d had six previous husbands and more lovers then Gillian
thought healthy. The unspoken warning in Barbara’s eyes pierced clearer than
any shouting match could be. There would be hell to pay if any attention slipped
from the bride.
“Typical.” Gilli glared at the flowers, disgust rolling in her nauseous gut.
She offered a prayer the ceremony would draw to a quick end so she could ditch
the shoes, the flowers, and find a quiet corner to relax in, with the help of an
expensive bottle of champagne.
She shot a glance across the aisle, heat suffusing her face when she caught
sex in a cummerbund’s eye. Screw the wine—what she wouldn’t give to get lost
in him. Maybe if she’d been different… Pushing aside the vague thought, she
focused on the drone of her mother’s voice as she spoke her vows.
*
Jack caught the flare of desire in the eyes of the slim girl across from him
before she ducked her head. He glanced up the aisle at the bride and exhaled. A
sharp elbow to the side sent a shard of pain dancing up his ribs, drawing his
attention.
“Behave yourself.”
“I am,” he grunted. His neck itched from the starch in his shirt collar, and
the tie added to the discomfort. How he’d let himself get talked into this monkey
suit he still didn’t know. It was obvious to anyone who knew him he was being a
gentleman; hell, he’d have left hours ago, the minute he’d met the bride, if he’d
been misbehaving. Although, the view from where he was sure made up for the
monkey suit. She was cute, not out and out beautiful, but a knockout with her
gentle curves and shy demeanor—it was the quiet ones who got you hooked.
“Hey, who’s the kid?” His eyes traced over her again, the familiar curiosity
dancing along his nerves as he wondered what the dress hid.
“That’s Gillian. She’s not a kid. She’s only six years younger than you are.”
“Yeah, but what does she do?”
“Something with dinosaurs, I think.”
“Dinosaurs, huh?” He whistled under his breath, his interest pricked.
Lenny shot him a quick look. “She’s the man-eating kind. Now, if you don’t
mind, I’d like to get married.”
“Man-eater my ass.”
Listening to the preacher drag on, Jack turned his attention to studying the
bridesmaid. Her fingers plucked at the ribbon on the flowers and her brows were
drawn down behind the horrible glasses she wore. Dark rims shrouded her eyes,
sitting atop her little nose, seeming to mock him. The pale purple and yellow
dress she wore clung to her body, her narrow waist flowing into slim hips. Her
chest rose and fell, the material hugging her small breasts. Though not his
typical type, Jack couldn’t help himself, the need to get closer a steady confusing
pull. He wasn’t here to get laid—this wasn’t some bar or nightclub.
Besides, there was always Shelli—buxom, gorgeous, sexy, a woman who
knew her way around a bed, like all of the women he’d dated. Career-minded,
single, knew how to play the game—and as boring as hell—probably why he’d
dumped her before coming to the wedding. Nope, not here to get laid, he
reprimanded himself, although I would kill to see what’s under the hideous
amount of fabric.
On automation, he followed the bride and groom back down the aisle. With
every step, he snuck another glance at the woman ahead of him. Who the hell
was she? Inching closer to her, he sighed, the faint scent of her soap drifting to
him. The hint of flowers more of a turn-on than any perfume he’d smelled
before. Determination filled him. He’d find out at the reception; someone had to
know more than her name.
*
What a dish? Perhaps I was a bit too hasty. Still, there’s time. Though I am
worried about his interest in Gillian. Man like him would know his way around
the bedroom. Would know how to please a woman. Nope, sure wouldn’t kick him
out of my bed for eating crackers, unless it was to fuck him on the floor.
Look at her, lost in her own little world, ignoring the stud. Good for me, bad
for her. Tasty, and she hasn’t got a clue. Never did. The useless little snot. How I
wish Jason had gone away when I found out. Could have removed it before it
ruined my figure. Though it does have its uses. Yes, yes, it does.
*
Gilli sat in the darkest corner at a small round table, her fingers plucking at
the tablecloth. The music from the band swirled around her, irritating already
exposed nerves. Why her mother would want hard rock at her wedding she had
no idea, nor did she particularly care. It was one more attempt on Barbara’s part
to reclaim her youth or some such stupidity.
With a nail, she scratched at the itch where her glasses usually sat, the faint
indent of the bridge on her nose a welcome reminder. There was a very good
reason she hated these parties—the opulence and public displays her mother so
loved. Just knowing her mother had found another unsuspecting fool was enough
to turn her stomach. The urge to flee was strong, but she was a prisoner of the
damn chair until either she got help or got her glasses back. Maybe she could
coerce one of the servers into stealing her mother’s clutch bag and returning it.
Yes, she’d offer them a ten-spot and see if they’d bite.
In her typical, domineering manner, her mother had snatched her glasses the
moment she’d sat down. Now they were in the little white clutch her mother had
—but being as close to blind as she was, the damn thing could be right in front
of her and she would never know it. Swearing under her breath, Gilli reached for
her drink. The burn of alcohol down her throat drew a grimace.
“You don’t drink much, do you?” Deep, the whiskey-smooth baritone
danced along her nerves, setting them aflame.
“No, I don’t.” Gilli wiggled in her seat. Her shoulders hunched as she
sucked at the strong concoction in her glass. Her stomach twisted with each
swallow. Tomorrow she’d pay for drinking, but tonight it was the only thing
making the evening bearable. A shiver danced over her and she exhaled. Would
it be too much to ask for the floor to swallow her whole?
“You should slow down on that, it’s pretty strong.”
Why was he talking to her? There wasn’t any logical reason to speak to her.
Men didn’t talk to her except to ask what bone went where on the skeleton of a
stegosaurus. Unless… Her stomach twisted at the stray, unwelcome thought
settling like a lead weight. Had her mother asked him to?
“I’m Jack.”
“Gillian.” She held out her free hand in the direction of the voice. His warm
laughter preceded his calloused palm as he shook her hand. “Nice to meet you.”
If he picked up on the sarcasm, his grip didn’t show it.
“Pleasure’s all mine, only woman here not gyrating like a wannabe belly
dancer—which is so wrong when you’re listening to ACDC.” Firm, dry, his
hand pumped hers up and down. His thumb rubbed along her knuckles absently,
the gentle caress reaching through to her center. “So, what happened to your
glasses?”
Gilli set her empty glass on the table and reached in vain for the largest
object on the table, hoping it was the bottle of whatever she was drinking. “My
glasses?”
“You had glasses on at the church, but I don’t see them anywhere. Did you
lose them?” His voice dropped, the warmth of his breath ghosting over her skin.
The taffeta of her dress slipped along the chair as she moved away from him.
She debated getting up but brushed aside the instinctual desire. They were in a
public place and she’d sat down first.
“In a manner of speaking.” Gilli sighed, slouching forward even farther.
Why is he still talking to me? What could he possibly want with me? Unless he’s
desperate, and hey, then it wouldn’t be so bad. A quick tumble and I’m good for
another few years. It’s not like I need sex, but Hillary says it’s healthy…
“Oh?”
Gilli shook her head, there was no way she was sharing this humiliation
with a stranger. Why couldn’t her mother have left her glasses alone? Why was
she sitting at a reception dressed in pale purple and yellow, blind, alone, and
ignored for the most part?
“So, you’re a friend of the bride?” His voice pulled her from her thoughts.
“Daughter. Unfortunately for me … and you it would seem since you’re
here stuck talking to me.” Gillian squinted at the table, leaning forward in the
vain hope of finding the alcohol. A dart of something slid under her skin when
she recognized the blurred shape of what appeared to be an umbrella. It wasn’t
her drink, but what the hey, didn’t matter. As long as there was something in
there strong enough to drown out the need to retch she’d be happy. She touched
the glass, moved it slightly, and breathed a long sigh of relief. Finally! Taking a
long sip, she shivered. If it takes me all night, when I get Mother’s purse I’m
going to steal my glasses and catch the first flight home.
“Really? Uh, your um…”
“Believe me, this isn’t my idea of fun. This is one step below the Spanish
Inquisition for torture. As well the woman knows; she just refuses to allow
anyone to ruin her day.” The old resentment a bitter weight on her tongue, she
wondered again why Barbara would want her around. “I’d rather be at a dig or
the library or something. To be honest, anything is preferable to being stuck in
this Gong Show. Don’t get me wrong, I love weddings, they’re great, fun; it’s
just attending hers I despise. So, what brings you here?”
“Are you an archeologist?”
“Historian. I’ve spent years learning all about history—specifically
Canadian history, pre-white settlers. At the moment I work for a movie
company. They’re making an epic historical drama, and I’m the consultant they
hired—or rather the museum loaned out. Then when I go home I’m going back
to work. The new semester is starting soon, keeps me busy.” Gillian shrugged.
“How’d you get roped into my mother’s wild plans?”
“Ah, you noticed my less than subtle dodge, huh? I’m a friend of the
groom’s. He’s my captain at the fire hall.” A figure moved between them, setting
something with ice in it on the table before vanishing.
Gillian nodded. Typical. Why couldn’t he be something she could hate?
Snickering at herself, she reached for the glass on the table. Even geeks can be
asses, Gilli, just look at Mike. Fear and revulsion slithered down her spine at the
memory. No, don’t look at that example. Better not to think of it, she told herself,
her fingers catching the edge of a glass.
“Watch it, you’re going to…” His warning came seconds too late.
Chapter 2
Gillian stifled a shriek as the icy liquid spread across the front of her dress.
She stumbled to her feet, knocking her knee against the table. The clatter of
glasses and cutlery banging terrified her. “Oh no!” Thankfully, nothing hit the
floor, and she breathed a soft sigh of relief that was short-lived. If her mother
found out, oh God, I’m dead.
“…Spill your drink.” He pressed a napkin into her hand, his touch firm,
commanding. “Come on, let’s get you cleaned up.”
“I can do this by myself…” Gilli tensed. Fear prickled at the thought of
having a man helping her, touching her. In her experience nothing good ever
came of their touch, and she wasn’t in any shape to make an escape—even an
undignified one.
“How? You able to see your way to the ladies room?” Jack wrapped an arm
around her waist and nudged her forward. “Come on, I promise I’ll be a perfect
gentleman.”
“Get my glasses from the witch in white and I’ll be grateful.” Gilli winced,
her ankles wobbling as she stumbled, sending a sharp throbbing pain up her leg.
Why would anyone who knew her expect her to be able to wear four inch heels?
“Here we go.” Jack tightened his grip for a second. “I’ll wait right here—if
you need help…”
“I won’t.” Gilli pushed on the door. Stepping into the quiet of the restroom,
she inched her way to the sink. The counter edge bit into her palm as she leaned
against it, fumbling with the straps to get her shoes off before she dropped them
on the floor. The cold of the tiles seeped into her feet, relieving the ache in her
arches. “I hate heels, I hate dresses that make me look like an escapee from the
Easter Parade, and I hate my mother. Really, why on earth would she even
dream I’d like this?” With a shaking hand, she blotted at the stain on her dress.
Gilli shook her head. “I can’t see a damn thing and she knows it…”
“Why?” Jack’s voice behind her drew a startled yelp. Her arms flailing
about, Gilli found herself pressed against his hard body. Whether it was fear or
something else that got her pulse racing, Gillian wasn’t sure, nor did she relish
the idea of uncovering the truth. Both were familiar and as welcome as razor
burn on her bikini line.
“Why what?”
“Why can’t you see?”
“I have congenital glaucoma.” Gilli straightened, her body swaying. She