Fantasies of a Young Submissive

219 Pages·2003·1.29 MB·English

FANTASIES OF A YOUNG
SUBMISSIVE
by
ROSALEEN YOUNG
CHIMERA
Fantasies of a Young Submissive first published in 2003 by
Chimera Publishing Ltd
PO Box 152
Waterlooville
Hants
PO8 9FS
Printed and bound in Great Britain by
Cox & Wyman Ltd, Reading.
This book is sold subject to the condition that it shall not, by
way of trade or otherwise, be lent, resold, hired out or
otherwise circulated without the publisher’s prior written
consent in any form of binding or cover other than that in
which it is published, and without a similar condition being
imposed on the subsequent purchaser.
The characters and situations in this book are entirely imaginary
and bear no relation to any real person or actual happening.
Copyright © Rosaleen Young
The right of Rosaleen Young to be identified as author of this book has been asserted in
accordance with section 77 and 78 of the Copyrights Designs and Patents Act 1988
FANTASIES OF A YOUNG
SUBMISSIVE
Rosaleen Young
This novel is fiction – in real life practice safe sex
This book is dedicated to the one to whom I owe my life
and my soul,
N.B.
And to my beloved parents, who I pray will never read it.
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Contents
Index of Images 6
Foreword – about this book and its authoress 7
Vanity 19
The Woods 28
Eden 41
After the Ball 43
The Task 58
The Watcher 68
For a Mistress 83
Consequences 85
The Marionette 119
Worship 133
Lolita 147
Redemption 149
Libertinage 163
Arachne’s Lair 181
Two Women 187
Her Majesty’s Obsession 189
Emergence 206
Virgin 216
Afterword 218
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Index of Images
I wish to send a special thank you to the extremely talented
and renowned photographic artist, Mike Crawley, for
helping me to create the images in this book. It was
extremely important to me that the imagery reflected the
dark eroticism of the stories, and I couldn’t have been
more delighted with the result. I have appeared in thousands
of photographs but within the pages here you will find
some of the loveliest pictures ever taken of me.
Property Front Cover
Homework 18
Forbidden Fruit 40
Captured Innocence 67
Bedtime 84
Resignation 118
Lolita 148
Freud’s Vision 180
For the Taking 188
Restricted Pride 205
The Summer Harvest 215
Daydream 217
In Humble Servitude Back Cover
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Foreword
About this book and its authoress
Scratching the Surface
My name, as you have probably gleaned from the cover
of this book, is Rosaleen Young. I am, as far as we are
defined by what we do for a living, a Fine Art and fetish
model. You may have seen my image on the cover of
other books, in calendars or posters, in art exhibitions or
on one of the fetish art websites on the Internet. More
importantly, I am a lifestyle submissive and it is by that
role that I prefer to express who I am.
I first began fetish modelling about a year ago. I was
growing tired of my dull career in teen fashion and was
aching for something more imaginative. Despite my own
feelings of submission, I was ignorant to the fact that
there were so many websites out there dedicated to my
passions. It was only when I started to explore the Web
that I truly found my niche. Fetish modelling fitted like a
glove and gave me the opportunity to explore my
submission and share the joy of it with others.
Modelling is, by its very nature, superficial. The girl is
silenced, stripped of any personality and transformed into
a face on a page. My writing helps me to claim back my
voice and allow those who are interested to know a little
of who I am beyond the green eyes and dark hair on the
surface.
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The Young Submissive Female – A Self Analysis
The world of the submissive is filled with paradox.
Through slavery I achieve freedom. I derive pleasure from
my pain, power from my submission. The sensual
excitement that I receive from being punished does not
end at the physical level. I feel a deep psychological
strength, relief, even pride at having endured it. I have
tried to analyse my own feelings in order to derive some
kind of psychological explanation for the way I am. I
know that I am physically aroused by the sensation of
pain on certain areas of my body but it is the mental
rewards that are most important in understanding why I
crave such sensations.
I am certain that a strict upbringing is a contributing
factor. Although there was nothing sexual in the corporal
punishment I received from my parents, the fact that
someone loved me, was giving me attention and cared
enough about my behaviour to take such measures to
correct it was a genuine comfort. A sense of relief follows,
a feeling of having paid for my crimes and been washed
clean again. There is also a tremendous sense of relief in
submitting completely to the will of another. All thoughts
and responsibilities are lifted from my shoulders and I
can relax in the knowledge that I am in safe hands.
Growing up in a conservative, Presbyterian family, I
was made to feel guilty over the slightest inappropriate
thought let alone having naughty fantasies about being
dominated and punished. In an endless and ironic cycle, I
found myself chastised for these feelings by the very
subject that they were centred around – being spanked.
I have often been asked what it means to be a true
submissive. There is no generic answer to this question.
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Submission is expressed in different ways in different
people. There are those who like to adhere to the many
clichés they read about in books, the wearing of a collar,
the removal of any underwear, the lowering of the eyes.
For others these elements may or may not come into play.
It is up to each couple to decide the pattern of behaviour
that is right for them and how they wish to explore the
dominant and submissive aspects of their relationship. To
me, submission is an expression of love. As such it is no
different than the act of marriage, the collar (be it physical
or psychological) holds the same symbolism as the
wedding ring. The submissive, like the bride in traditional
ceremonies, promises her complete obedience, body and
the entirety of her love to one Master or Mistress.
Sometimes the owner may choose to lend her to others
for a time. Sometimes the owner allows no one else to
touch her. Either way she has chosen to sacrifice her will
out of love, perhaps the most selfless of all expressions
of love.
I am still far from fully understanding this socially
forbidden yet powerful key to my sexual self. That is
why I have chosen to explore my own fantasies through
writing erotica. Each story is conjured from the depths
of my imagination and from my experiences in my own
world of submission and slavery.
Early Beginnings
I don’t know exactly when it was that I first realised I
had feelings of submission. Three incidences stand out in
my memory as flagging up such tendencies even during
my early childhood.
I remember that, at about the age of five, I was given a
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