Am I Bipolar or Waking Up? Hi Everyone! In order to help spread the word regarding the healing potential of bipolar disorder, this complete version of “Am I Bipolar or Waking Up?” has been made available free for everyone to share. However, for those of you who prefer another format, or wish to support my work, both the paperback and Kindle e-book version are available at www.Amazon.com. Enjoy the book! Sean Blackwell www.bipolarORwakingUP.com A Memoir by Sean Blackwell 2011 All mental disorders carry a damaging stigma in our society. As a result, some names and locations have been changed in order to protect the privacy of family, friends and co-workers. This book has been self-published with the help of www.createspace.com. © 2011 by Sean Blackwell All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner without written permission from the author. Cover Art by Oz J. Thomas. ISBN-13: 978-1461178255 Printed in the United States of America To those of you who have been stamped Your time will come. Contents Prologue xi PART 1 – RUDE AWAKENING 1 Handcuffed 3 God-less 9 Synchronicity 14 Death 25 Life 29 Neurosis 43 Wonderland 52 Purgatory 59 Hell 69 PART 2 – THE STRUGGLE FOR INTEGRITY 93 Sensitivity 99 Validation 106 Compromise 110 Vision 117 Heart 132 PART 2 – CONTINUED Ambition 143 Intensity 151 Sell-out 166 Depression 172 Heaven? 177 PART 3 – THE MISSION 185 Fear 187 Love 197 Hope 209 Faith 217 Epilogue 221 Thank You 227 Notes 229 Links 231 CAUTION This memoir tells my story and reflects my opinions at the time the events took place. Those opinions have evolved somewhat and will continue to evolve over time. In no way does this book give medical advice or make suggestions, one way or another, regarding medications for any mental disorder or spiritual experience. If you are exploring alternatives to the mainstream psychiatric system, please do so carefully and with the full support of people who empathize with your struggle. ix Part Two: The Struggle for Integrity
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