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In my late 20s, I was hospitalized in a psychiatric unit in Oranjezicht, Cape Town, after a deep dive into the melancholic desperation and loss of hope that depression brings. My treatment involved 12 electro-convulsive therapy sessions and experimentation with combinations of medication. During a temporary discharge, I hit rock bottom, sitting in a car outside a hardware store a short drive from the hospital, trying to pluck up the courage to go inside and buy a hosepipe, so I could gas myself in my garage. I was too cowardly to get out of the car but too strong to be so terribly selfish to my loved ones.It took a full 14 months to reach the point of full recovery, during which time I lost my business and had to sell my car to cover my medical bills. But it didn’t matter; I found relative happiness again when I moved back to my beloved hometown, Durban. For several years I was fully functional, but Covid-19 brought on loneliness and drinking to excess.My dad suddenly passed away, and my loneliness was replaced by anger at the world as I watched my mom’s heart break over and over again. In relative despair, I decided it was time to tell my story as an escape from circumstance and in an effort to spread mental health awareness.Make no mistake; there have been wonderful times too. This book, in absolute honest terms, chronicles my journey, including times of wild excitement, lack of responsibility, desperate attempts at finding love through promiscuity, real love, comradery, confusion, commitment, guilt, paranoia, and some outrageous tales that friends describe as “could only ever happen to Keegan.”I hope I can change some opinions and help people in the way that I have been helped by those that really matter.

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In my late 20s, I was hospitalized in a psychiatric unit in Oranjezicht, Cape Town, after a deep dive into the melancholic desperation and loss of hope that depression brings. My treatment involved 12 electro-convulsive therapy sessions and experimentation with combinations of medication. During a temporary discharge, I hit rock bottom, sitting in a car outside a hardware store a short drive from the hospital, trying to pluck up the courage to go inside and buy a hosepipe, so I could gas myself in my garage. I was too cowardly to get out of the car but too strong to be so terribly selfish to my loved ones.It took a full 14 months to reach the point of full recovery, during which time I lost my business and had to sell my car to cover my medical bills. But it didn’t matter; I found relative happiness again when I moved back to my beloved hometown, Durban. For several years I was fully functional, but Covid-19 brought on loneliness and drinking to excess.My dad suddenly passed away, and my loneliness was replaced by anger at the world as I watched my mom’s heart break over and over again. In relative despair, I decided it was time to tell my story as an escape from circumstance and in an effort to spread mental health awareness.Make no mistake; there have been wonderful times too. This book, in absolute honest terms, chronicles my journey, including times of wild excitement, lack of responsibility, desperate attempts at finding love through promiscuity, real love, comradery, confusion, commitment, guilt, paranoia, and some outrageous tales that friends describe as “could only ever happen to Keegan.”I hope I can change some opinions and help people in the way that I have been helped by those that really matter.

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