The Privilege of Youth A Teenager’s Story of Longing for Acceptance and Friendship Dave Pelzer visit Penguin at: www.penguin.com epenguin dpyp$$all.qxd 9/25/03 10:26 Page 229 A A BOUTSTHE UTHOR A former air force aircrew member, Dave proudly served in the USAF for more than thirteen years. He played a ma- jor role in Operations Just Cause, Desert Shield, and Desert Storm. Dave was selected for the unique task of midair refueling of the once highly secretive SR-71 Blackbird and the F-117 Stealth Fighter. While serving in the air force, Dave worked in juvenile hall and other programs involving “youth-at-risk” throughout California. Dave’s exceptional accomplishments include commenda- tions from Presidents Reagan, Bush, Clinton, and George W. Bush, as well as other various heads of state. While main- taining an international active-duty fight schedule, Dave was the recipient of the 1990 JCPenney Golden Rule Award, making him the California Volunteer of the Year. In 1993, Dave was honored as one of the Ten Outstanding Young Americans (TOYA), joining a distinguished group of alumni that includes Chuck Yeager, Christopher Reeve, Anne Ban- croft, John F. Kennedy, Orson Welles, and Walt Disney. In dpyp$$all.qxd 9/25/03 10:26 Page 230 ABOUT THE AUTHOR = 1994, Dave was the only American to be selected as one of The Outstanding Young Persons of the World (TOYP) for his efforts involving child-abuse awareness and prevention, as well as for promoting resilience and self-responsibility in others. During the Centennial Olympic Games, Dave was a torchbearer, carrying the coveted flame. Dave is the author of four other inspirational books: A Child Called “It,” which has been on the New York Times bestseller list for more than five years; The Lost Boy, which has been on the same list for more than four years; and A Man Named Dave, a bestseller for nearly two years. Dave’s latest book, Help Yourself, was also an instant New York Times bestseller. Dave’s books have been on the bestseller list for more than eleven years combined. Dave is currently at work on his next book, which deals with issues for teens, entitled Help Yourself for Teens. His fu- ture works may include a tome entitled My Wife’s Life: One Husband’s Quest to Understand the Complexities of the Married Female Psyche. When not on the road with his wife, Marsha, or son, Stephen, or submitting to his recent addiction to golf, Dave lives a quiet life in Southern California with his two Bichon dogs, Titan (“Big Boy”) and Ernie (“the Psycho Pup”) and his box turtle named Chuck. For more information you can visit Dave’s Web site at www.davepelzer.com. This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are either the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events or locales is entirely coincidental. 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Electronic edition: February 2004 dpyp$$all.qxd 9/25/03 10:26 Page v D ESDICATION A s always, without my lovely wife, Marsha; my incredi- ble son, Stephen; and God, I am nothing. I have been blessed by their love and encouragement. My family sacri- fices so much to allow me to do the work I do. I am grateful beyond words for giving me such a wonderful life. This book is also dedicated with deepest sincerity to: David Howard and Paul Brazell, life-long friends and brothers-in-arms in the promotion of unimaginable chaos in our search for days of adventure that we prayed would never end. Mr. Dan Brazell, the father I never had. Not a day goes by that I do not think of you. I’ve passed many of the life lessons you’ve taught me on to my son. Michael A. Marsh, truly one of the most extraordinary individuals I have ever known, whose vast knowledge, guidance, and love literally changed to course of my life. Thanks, Sarge. Mrs. Beth Ann Brazell and daughter Dori, for putting up v dpyp$$all.qxd 9/25/03 10:26 Page vi DEDICATION = with me and allowing me a glimpse into your loving family. Sandy Marsh, the sweetest lady I know, for your gentle guidance and everlasting inspiration. The Marsh Boys: William and “Moonraker” Eric, thank you both for all the years of love. Both of you made me laugh when my heart cried for the brothers I missed so much. Mrs. Jacqueline Howard and daughter Sheryl, for treat- ing me as one of your own. “Mrs. H,” you’ve always been one classy dame. Thanks for everything, “Mom”! John and Linda Walsh, thank you allowing me into your foster home and introducing me to the wonderful world of Duinsmoore. The Neyland Family, Mr. and Mrs. Jolly, and anyone else within the confines of Suburban Park, for tolerance, pa- tience, and forgiveness. I meant no harm. The tolerant and even saintly men and women of the Menlo Park Police Department, especially Detective Joe Ochella. I’ve learned my lesson now: fight for truth, honor, and lower speed limits with fewer automotive shenanigans. And finally, to Ronald, Stan, Russell, and Kevin: good men, all, who too endured and made their lives all the better. vi dpyp$$all.qxd 9/25/03 10:26 Page vii C OSNTENTS Chapter 1. AGood Man’s Departure 1 Chapter 2. ALost Boy 15 Chapter 3. Wonderland 33 Chapter 4. The Neighborhood Threat 45 Chapter 5. Brotherhood 61 Chapter 6. Moving On 87 Chapter 7. Girl World 109 Chapter 8. ABoy and His Car 127 Chapter 9. Wake-Up Call 151 Chapter 10. Stepping Out 175 Epilogue 199 Acknowledgments 211 vii dpyp$$all.qxd 9/25/03 10:26 Page viii CONTENTS = Duinsmoore Way Perspective 213 I. David Howard II. Michael Marsh III. Mrs. Howard Keynotes 227 About the Author 229 viii dpyp$$all.qxd 9/25/03 10:26 Page ix The PRIVILEGE YOUTH of