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CROSSING A T R A N S G E N D E R M E M O I R with a new Afterword The University of Chicago Press, Chicago 60637 The University of Chicago Press, Ltd., London © 1999, 2019 by The University of Chicago All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission, except in the case of brief quotations in critical articles and reviews. For more information, contact the University of Chicago Press, 1427 E. 60th St., Chicago, IL 60637. Published 2019 Printed in the United States of America 28 27 26 25 24 23 22 21 20 19 1 2 3 4 5 ISBN- 13: 978- 0- 226- 66256- 5 (paper) ISBN- 13: 978- 0- 226- 66273- 2 (e- book) DOI: https://doi.org/10.7208/chicago/9780226662732.001.0001 Library of Congress Cataloging- in- Publication Data Names: McCloskey, Deirdre N., author. Title: Crossing : a transgender memoir : with a new afterword / Deirdre N. McCloskey. Description: Chicago ; London : The University of Chicago Press, 2019. | Originally published: Chicago, Ill. ; London : University of Chicago Press, ?1999. Identifiers: LCCN 2019008616 | ISBN 9780226662565 (pbk. : alk. paper) | ISBN 9780226662732 (e- book) Subjects: LCSH: McCloskey, Deirdre N. | Transgender people. | Transsexuals— United States—Biography. | Gender identity—United States—Psychological aspects. | Gender nonconformity. | Sex change. | LCGFT: Autobiographies. Classification: LCC HQ77.8.M39 A3 2019 | DDC 306.76/8—dc23 LC record available at https://lccn.loc .gov/2019008616 ♾ This paper meets the requirements of ANSI/NISO Z39.48- 1992 (Permanence of Paper). THAT WOMANLY SOLIDARITY AND GRACE Joanne Me., Helen Me., Lucy, Robin P., Susan R., Laura Me., JoAnn R., Janet B., BarbaraJean W, Stephanie V., Anna, Rebekka, Angela, Bren P., Ruthann P., Cari B., Roxanne D.,Aliee E., Miehelle P., Lola 1., Jenifer G., Carol E, Nancy H., Sharon M., Ann R., Kim P., Linda c., Leola B., Kitch A., Nadine c., Helen R., Santhi H., Mary Beth c., Marty 0., Esther H., Elyee R., Diana S., Naomi 1., Claudia G., Margalit M., Cynthia T.-M., Mary G., Ruby 0., Susan c., Evelyn Me., Virginia P., Laura 1.-G., Jeri, Mira,Judith M., Janet 1., Mary S., Ginny, Ginny 0., Mary 1., Connie N., Sarah M., Riva R., Denis 1., Louise P., Susan W, Connie B., Sarah H., Susan 1., Helene 1., Gayle S., Aliee S., Marijke P., Renee J., Anna K., Jani K., Gonda K., Theresia K., Marianne K., Luz-Eugenia C.-E, v., Mary M., Anna de B., Nienke G., Corinne v., Linda W, Marian Livia P., Kathleen D., Marian van der B., Irene van S., Lieke M., Nancy E, Fieke van der 1., Coeo B., Tineke 0., v Rolien v. D., Nelleke v. D., Marlite, Simone, Margeth H., Judith S., Vicky A., Christine B., Sheila B., Susan M., Marlena C, Barbara C, Jackie B., Katherine M., Mary, Katherine H., Fran<;oise S., Katherine C, Carmel M., Leena M., Marie M. R., Marilyn B., Lynn]., Tineke B., Nicole B., Nancy W, Corine van D., Elizabeth T, Suzanne]., Barbara G., Gail v., Noe v., Hedie S., Consuela W, Susannah M., Monique, Marianne D., Bernadette, Jeanne G., Teri S., Pat T., Saskia de v., Rita S., Franc;oise, Marthe, Tjietschede, Edith K.,Jolien H., Eva K.-v. d. D., Marja 1., Timmie T, Paivi 0., Jagi G., Linda R., Mariette B., Pien v. d. B., Antoinette B., Marianne B., Anneke v. B., Anne Irene v. d. B., Janka E, Astrid H., Else K., Paula M., Maria H., Anja d. ]., Ria a.-v.D., Wendela v. B., Annemarie u., Corinna d. W, Marti T, Annemarie v., Jennifer R., Guje S., Karen K., Rae Ann, Diane R., Deb R, Katherine T, Linda W, Judy van H., Lin L., Julie S., Suzanne Z., Fiona R., Annie, Patty H., Samantha H., Amanda H., Kathy E., Karen T, Caroline ]., Paola B., Irina, Kathryn M., Irma, Bregje v. E., Betsy H., Mary T, Lori R., Joanie Z., Fran A., Alice H.-E, Lori E., Judith C,Joanne P., Sharon Mc., Doris W, Linnea P., Anne T, Iulie A., Charlotte K.,Anna M.-S., Christine M., Maxine B., Starrlett C, Barbara W-B., Hanna G., Emily C, Evonne, Dorothy H., Julianna C, Shari T, Renea]., Sharon S., Cheryl G., Kathleen E, Paddy Q., Anya R., Mary Ellen H.,Amy A., Joyce B., Amy D., Sara R.-W, Cathy C, Sharon B., Paula M., Marisa R, Nuala Z., Cynthia E, Dorothy H., Elena G., Mary G. H., Valerie H., Valerie L., Ayhan L., Alison 0., Beth I., Grace J., Linda K., Pat C, Jean L., Lois C, Anne T, Jean L.-J., Minnette D., Mary N., Barb 0., Helena D., Mary D., Carin G., Robin S., Adriana M., Maggie R, Sister Dorothy Ann, Sister Marilyn B., Sister Irene M., Gabriella M. v; CONTENTS Acknowledgments ix Preface: Crossings xi PART ONE DONALD Boy to Man 2 2 Marriage 12 3 Internet 17 4 Professor Dressed 23 5 Clubs 28 6 In the Ladies' Room 35 7 Boldness 43 B Epiphany 48 9 Losing a Family 56 10 Academic Drag 64 " A Day You Feel Pretty 69 12 Premarin 75 13 Sweet October 78 PART TWO DEE 14 Outed 87 vii Afterword: After Two Decades 267 Photographs follow page 176 viii CONTENTS ACKNOWLEDGMENTS Theresia Ketting, Marianne Ketting, Arjo Klamer, Marijke Prins, and Elaine Pfefferblit told me in August 1996 that the first draft needed work. An audience at the Project on Rhetoric of Inquiry at the Uni versity of Iowa heard the beginnings of a new version in the late win ter of 1997 and was encouraging. Patricia Hersh read several versions, offering encouragement and suggestions. David Joel and my agent Gordon Massman offered excellent professional advice, most of which I've taken. Helen McCloskey, Lori Erickson, Carrie La Seur, Alan Ven able, Barbara Olson, Kate Cummings, Arjo Klamer, Gabriela Maya, Joanne Meyerowitz, andJan Radway gave me advice as the book came out of the oven. Alice Bennett at the University of Chicago Press did the frosting. My brother John writes so much better than I do that I wish he could have written it all; he did rewrite many paragraphs. Readers should thank all these people for their love and their judg ment. I do. ix